1. |
Intro/Industrial Complex
04:12
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I wake up
And feel it crashing down
I will wait around for
You to call me out
But it feels
So Futile
Wasted days
Typical
It's none of my business
But it's my job
It's not my place to
Correct what's wrong
So please by
All means have
Your cake and
Eat it too
I will avoid it or embrace it
I think that i am replaceable
And you are the replacement
This whole thing feels so dated
I scream while shaking your shoulders
I stir the pot just to watch you boil over
It's fine
Because you have control
And you deem it fair
But one day I will take the throne
You put your key in the ignition
While I watch my life play out on closed circuit television
You tell your friends you're so happy
While I struggle to get out of this
Plastic wrapping
It isn't fucking happening
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2. |
PTSD
01:41
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What if every time I got back up
They said "damn I should kick them down more often"
And what if every time you told me to shut up
I zipped my lips and hid the key so well i nearly lost it
I fear god and being sober
You're always right
Even when you're wrong
So when I get pushed around
I'll know it's all my fault
PTSD
I am forced to be an advocate
PTSD
I am forced to fuckin deal with it
I fear god and being sober
PTSD
Forced to be an advocate
oh god
It's not like I don't deal with it
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3. |
Model Man
01:18
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Model man
Pinnacle of masculinity
Model man
No intellect no reasoning
No taking stands
Because I am not your enemy
I promise i'm not your enemy
Blissful in my ignorance cause I don’t really give a shit
Model man
The cult of masculinity
Model man
All apathy no empathy
No taking stands
Because I'm not your enemy
I'm blissful!
Blissful in my ignorance cause I don’t really give a shit
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4. |
Live Free and Die
03:29
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Outcasts
And for good reason
God forbid we accept anyone
Tried and true
But outdated
Doesn't apply to everyone
The brain is just an organ but at the same time a weapon
I thought you knew how to use it
Friendly fire's not your only option
But is alot more convenient
Than taking the time to actually think things through
But why would you
I picked up the phone
You stumbled through explanations
You can tell that my voice was shaking
And I could feel your eyes roll when I said
Take care of yourself motherfucker
Take care
Remembered by misfortune
All of your truth cursed and distorted
I thought that you'd never lose it
Growing old only to abuse this
The ones you have
The ones you lost
For your misdeeds
You pay the cost
I've thought this through
I trusted you
Cool calm and collected
Or overtaken by doubt
There is no in-between
There is no way out
I refuse to die on a hill that I created
I refuse to die
I refuse to die
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5. |
Milkovich Family Therapy
02:32
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Not everyone gets to just blurt out how they feel every fuckin minute
And it's not my job to make u feel like you're making the right decision
What you and i have makes me free
Why can't you leave it be
It's not what these assholes know
It's the love I show... how am i supposed to know...
No it's not the first time
But will it be the last
I just wanted you to love me without me having to ask
Well better luck next attempt
I hope that it was time well spent
Cause I've been staying at Ian's since you've been in the can
I've been finding my own way to feel like a man
Even tho it's something they can't stand
I know we'll be together in the end (ah fuck it)
No it's not the first time
But will it be the last
I just wanted you to love me without me having to ask
No it's not the first time
I've been the alter ego of some pretty boy
I think you'll have to do better hunny
I am not the least annoyed
Oh my god
It's coming again
I don't think I can stop it this time
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I would love to tank it
Then find some way to just move on
Yeah I would love to throw my life away
then just get gone
Like you've never seen me, like you never met me at all
Don't wanna fit inside this box you want me in
Even if it's for "the better"
I will never stay complacent
I'll keep pushing on the edges
Till I find a way to escape it all together
Brainbroken
Hopped up on a fantasy
Things we've believed since we were kids
Mostly broken promises
Lives spent fantasizing about a death wish
It's not so good to hear you admit it
The couple next door just found the cure for cancer
So what did you do this weekend,
just chase that feeling you're after?
Breaking
body and brain just to feel something
Leaves me sore and pissed
They can't keep getting away with this
...oh, but they will
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7. |
The Implication
01:52
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I'm always trying to fix it
with something else
But maybe I don't have to fix myself
After all this
I am still just a square hole for a round peg
After all this
I am still known
as the sensitive bitch who likes to complain
I'm always trying to fix it by doing drugs
You're always trying to fix it by acting tough
You're always trying to fix it, can't you tell
that maybe you don't have to fix yourself
The Implication
of altercation
Convince myself I'll make it out alive
But you won't
I won't either
We'll both die
None the wiser
But young
And beautiful
When you slip
I'll be there waiting
To point and laugh
Yet another pill I swallow without reading the side effects
Why can't I just live
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8. |
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Susceptible
Imperceptible
No, it's something else entirely
I think it's something else entirely
Rarely dependable
Barely acceptable
No, it's something else entirely
No I fear it's something else
You gotta believe me it's something else altogether
that kinda shit that keeps you up at night
It's not like anything I've never seen before
A condition I truly cannot describe
I never feel
Not for myself or for anyone
I never feel
Gotta stop myself
Before I've begun
The soul crushing weight of my own mediocrity
The judge and jury both have it out for me
But I'm still guilty
I'm still guilty, I'm still guilty, I'm still guilty
I've never felt like this before
Oh no, I've never felt like this before
I've been scammed and I've been cheated
I've been throw out and defeated
But I've never felt like this before
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